Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Anyone have a day like this?

"I'm sure you had a hard day, but I don't think there is such a thing as a chocolate I.V." "Well, there should be." I've had a couple of those days lately. Right now Marty is taking four classes, so he is full-time in his Master's program and full time at the seminary, too. Who knew there were enough hours in the day for that? I am so proud of him, and he is SO close! But, of course that means I'm pretty much on my own all day every day. I really don't mind it so much. I love being with my angels. I don't mind not having breaks from them exactly. I do, however, notice that when 9:00 rolls around I'm BEAT. I flop down on the bed, and that's where Marty finds me - just where he left me at 5:30 that morning! I truly am not complaining. It gives me a sense of empowerment as a mom to know I can do this! I just need to find ways to keep filling my "patience bucket" quicker than I empty it. I also need to keep my resolve strong with my Brycer. He is still as fun and playful as ever, but he's also been pushing every button, testing every rule, and pushing every limit. I'm worried about getting just plain tired and going soft! I have definitely lost my temper and felt horrible about it, but I am also going to act like my four year old for a minute and admit there have been times I've felt proud of myself, too! :) I'm so cheesy! Mmm, cheese.... With all that Marty has on his plate, he still manages to stay so thoughtful. He gave me these flowers on Wednesday so that I could look at them all day Thursday (his busiest school day - usually I don't see him). Every time I think about Marty or my kids I realize how blessed I am and how much I love life. I have decided that I LOVE white flowers. How boring is that? Like, the whole point of flowers is to bring more color to the earth! Bla bla bla, I'm going to bed. But not without some chocolate.

***Sorry about the no-paragraph thing. I don't know why it condenses them sometimes.